April showers bring MAY flowers.: August 2009

HELLLLOOOOOOOOO

Monday, August 24, 2009 at 7:40 PM

CHACE CRAWFORD. mmm..

feel my truth.

im traumatized from this car accident. im havin touble goin to sleep cuz i keep thinkin about it. car was so totalled, you look at it, you think anybody who survived in it was LUCKY.

i still have face and body contusions, neck feels better but im sore.

its crazy. it happened LIKE THAT. 4:28 am..

til im.... poof vamoose! son of a bitchhhhh! -- haha jay-z right there.

so this summer was good :) i cant wait til im out. i said i wouldnt miss anybody. but its kinda hittin me who ill truely miss. only certain people who have been kickin it and show me they really care.

those people are Maalik<3 -- Omar -- Javier -- Jenny J -- Grace -- Raun -- Corleon -- Maurice -- Kenny -- Rene <3333

FROM THIS DAY FOWARD

Friday, August 21, 2009 at 12:40 PM

I VOW TO NEVER CHEAT ON A SPOUSE, PARTNER ...W.E YOU WANNA CALL IT. IM ONE OF THE FEW WHO CAN SAY THEY'VE NEVER CHEATED ON SOMEONE AND PROUD OF IT. ITS ONE OF MY MORALS. & especially goin into college, which challenges this idea even more, im gonna stay loyal.

Hearing from him "you're beautiful, like no joke you're gorgeous, and im lucky to have you & i wouldnt give you up for none of these hoes here" really affected me. NEVER have I had a guy tell me HIMSELF, on his own that he was LUCKY to have me, id usually be the one to tell them when they fuck up "you're so fuckin lucky to have me, any other guy could realize it & act like it" (somewhere along those lines) and to hear this for the first time by someone who has done nothing wrong and said this, im so appreciative. he talks like an asshole sometimes, but you wouldnt believe how true & open he is. im happy :)

CONFUSION

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 at 11:01 PM

i cant make everyone happy.

idk what to do. stuck, torn, confused.

call it what you want

Allow me to reintroduce myself...

Friday, August 14, 2009 at 1:10 PM

So ive decided that i should write about myself, for those who THINK they know me. This should be interesting. Ill gurantee you'll find out something you didnt know or thought id never like/do. Here goes. Its long btw.

Alisa May Boonyarag. My government. Some people call me Alisa, others May. Its weird that my family and everyone in Montgomery Co. calls me May, over here and everywhere else its Alisa. UH-LEE-SAH... is how its pronounced, please get it right, its not hard. I probably call myself an americanized asian cuz i kinda am but i know how to speak, write, understand and read thai. I know how to perform thai classical dances and play a thai classical instrument too. so there, im not distant from my heritage.. ive just never been to thailand. People right away always assume im filipino... i cant count how many times that has happened but i can see why. well im thai.. to be more exact chinese & white too. My grandpa on my dad's side is white and grandpa on my mom's side is half chinese half thai. but i just go with thai, its easier. im not gonna go into status, age, location blah blah blah. um i love hotsauce which is weird cuz i use to hate spicy foods when i was younger. I can live off fruit, i drink water like 1 time a month, i always have arizona ice tea in my fridge. Despite my size. I eat A LOT. I love fashion like i have a REAL passion for it, I would never let my mom dress me when i was younger cuz id want to myself, AT SCIENCE CAMP when i was in 5th grade we were all named by the instructors and i was named ms fashion LOL, people always tell me im overly dressed for a lot of things, and i waste my money all the time on clothing. Its weird, cuz people tell me they'd see me doing something in the fashion industry and that'd be great but i dont think thatd be realistic.

Umm i have a younger sister and an older half sister (lives in thailand). Me and my younger sister dont really get along.. and we're pretty much different but we have some days that we talk and goof off. I LOVE LOVE LOVE kids. like for real, Im a big kid at heart. I havent met ONE kid that didnt get along with me. But dont get me wrong i dont want alot of kids when i get older, just one. So I may seem really girl, I wer makeup, I do my hair, I carefully pick out what i wear but im not superficial or materialistic at all. I love the environment, i love camping, and I care about humanitarian issues A LOT. I have a really soft spot for caring for other people in need. thats why SJU is the perfect school for me, cuz its a Venetian school which means its motive is to help those in need by volunteering. The way I see it, the world is so big and consists of so many problems, one person who helps out the world, makes it a little better. I dont do it for hours, for praise, or cuz i have to. Its cuz I want to. Im a true mj fan evre since i was young, like i get emotional watchin him now, if you dont like it or understand i could really give a fuck lol. I hate doing laundry cuz i have way too many clothes. I love to party and club but to be honest i get tired of it so sometimes i just sit in my house and relax... but that doesnt last long. I dont try to impress anyone unless its like someone important like the president or some shit idfk lol. i dont really have that many female friends, just females that i "talk" to i guess. Im mostly around guys, and i like it that way, no girls = no drama. I use to think my legs were fat when i was younger but now its what i get complimented on the most.

I keep all the stuffed animals people give me. I like giving gifts a lot.. when i have $ of couse lol. i like giving, im all about makin other ppl feel good. I dont mind paying.. again when i have money lol. Chivalry is important to me... but it seems like its dying. But i know guys who are so its all good. I get irritated so easily so just hope u catch me on a good day. I hate the fuckin water and fire. im a baby when im near fire. Water.. im ok but id drown in a sec. Im clostraphobic(sp) I cant stand people near me, I will push you even if i dont know you. I cuss a lot for a girl i guess but i hate it when a dude cusses a lot haha. I cant stand ignorance, its even worse that disrespect. I alwys close my eyes at the gorey or violent parts ina movie cuz i cant watch a human being hurt ot tortures, it kills me. I dont kill any animalsor bugs.. except mosquitoes cuz i hate mosquitoes w/ a passion i just cant and i have no desire too.. its a religious and personal thing i guess. Btw Im buddhist, im not as religious as i should or wanna be but i know how to perform chants and ive meditated and i know the sins and some teachings.

ok idk what else to write, if i think of anything ill add on.