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ANTICIPATION MIXTAPE - TREY SONGZ

still listenin to it so ill edit later to tell you how it goes..

EDIT

I only like 4 songs.. not counting 'Sucessful' cuz I been heard it off of Drake's shit. This mixtape wasnt that great. i still love him =p.

"Them FUCKASS HATERS" lmao.




Go head Cudi! lol. Cudi pays respects to MJ followed by a performance of Sky High!

Ive never seen him look THIS good.


I never though Cudi was cute.. EVER. but damn this pic is toooooooo nice he is clean. he looks sharp. I gotta give it to him.

SOPHISTICATED.



i cant wait for his album. LUPEEEEEEEE. ahhh hes a creative genius.

SONICCCC!




Finalllllllly had some! I swear we ordered like 43847238 things and 3432439 different times and stayed there for a min! lol it was good :)

LILY FUCKING ALLEN!!!



I love this chick for real, so I just realized I forgot to put her under my music category, i listen to her a lot. shes so different and unique and so effing adorable! This is one of my fav songs from her, i didnt think shed make a video for it though, im glad she did though cuz i like it! kinda reminds me of the trey songz wonder woman video but better i guess. anyways the song sounds A LOT better explicit.. obviously this version is heavily edited...

SPOTLIGHT



Do I even have to say who she is?

Better On the Other Side (A Tribute to Michael Jackson)






Better On The Other Side - Ft Chris Brown, Game, Diddy, Mario Winans, Boys 2 Men, Polow The Don

*Pause the other player*

DAY 26 - GIRLFRIEND

OK its hit me...


its finally hit me..

Im devastated that my favorite singer has died. devastated. no words can even explain. i feel so incosolable right now. i dont even want to listen to anything else music wise on my ipod other than him right now..

even though hes stopped making music, music is dead.

i never met the man, never even seen him but hes made such a huge impact on my life. dancing is something im passionate about, i took dance classes when i was younger, did thai dancing, took classes when i got older. he is truely an inspiration. I remember being yuong and putting bandaids and white tape on my fingers pretending to be like him, wearing a white glove dancing around in my house. I was obsessed with him, I still am. He is everything. His musical voice.. no one will ever be able to be up to par, to even come close to his unique sound. his lyrics and writing no one can compare. im like in awe.. he seemed immortal.. like he could never die. one thing is for sure his memory will NEVER die, his legacy is going to live forever. truely "gone but NEVER forgotten"

im really sad. like really..

here are some of my fav tribute videos.












I STILL CANT BELIEVE THIS SHIT

I DONT BEIEVE IT. IDK WHY I JUST DONT! HE CANT DIE HES MICHAEL FUCKING JACKSON! WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

IT STILL HASNT HIT ME YET. WTH.

AHHHH LOOKIN AT ALL THIS SHIT. ALL THESE TEXTS PPL SENT ME. IDK IDK IDK. THIS SHIT IT EVERYWHERE THOUGH!!!MICHAELJACKSON.COM
ABC

YOUTUBE

US

TIME

ROLLING STONE
MSNBC


YAHOO


E-ONLINE

CNN

MJ died the 25th , Aaliyah died the 25th, Static Major died the 25th, Left Eye the 25th too, James Brown 12/25


WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK?!!!?!


5 something pm - I receive a text from Lenell saying MJ is dead while on the way to driving school

I say "WHAT?! no."

I get to driving school. cant concentrate, im fidgeting anxious to know whether he died or not

I get the confirmation im like NoooOOOooOooo!!!!!!!!!!

I go to a thai restaraunt where I watch the news on t.v there and dicuss MJ to Josh's dad

and I leave and BLAST that MJ music from all the radio stations in the car

I come home and do the same shit.

smh.

WTF WTF WTF.

A DEDICATION TO MY FAVORITE SINGER - MICHAEL JACKSON

MICHAEL JOE JACKSON
1958-2009


“And my goal in life is to give to the world what I was lucky to receive: the ecstasy of divine union through my music and my dance.”


ok.. you guys were bond to hear this from me. ha TO BE COMPLETELY HONEST.. this probably is not gonna be my only post about Michael Jackson. So be prepared. Oh yeah and this is gonna be long. So I suggest unless you're not a die hard MJ fan or dont give a shit about what I have to say about him.. then stop reading now.


CALL ME PRESSED, OBSESSED, CRAZY, ON HIS "DICK", blah blah blahdddddddy blaaaaaaahdyyyyyy blahhhdy-fucking BLAH!

I dont give a SHIT. FOR REAL.

this is my fucking FAVORITE singer of all time and will always be. NO not your ordinary "oh I like his music a lot" TYPA FAN...


... I AM a DIE HARD FAN and you probably wouldnt understand unless you are too. You know id probably be one of those "crying/fainting" fans at his concert if i was born earlier.. I know all the words to ALL the songs, I know all the unreleased shit... SHIT I got a big assMJ poster right by my bed, I visited his STAR in Hollwywood and was all over that shit lol, and I own 483753487 CD'S, I even wrote to his fan club thing when I was like in Elementary school. I use to get CLOWNED on ALL the time in Elementary school cuz all I listened to was MJ MJ MJ MJ and all I talked about was MJ MJ MJ MJ and I would VERBALLY ABUSE anyone in school who talked smack about MJ. So tell me whos a REAL fan, get the hell out of here.. cuz half you motherfuckers out there postin twitter, myspace, and facebook status' about his death have cracked AT LEAST ONE joke about MICHAEL JACKSON. IVE NEVER.

(some of the cd's I have)

peep the mj poster in the back!

my grandma gave it as a gift for me last year.

couple yrs back in Hollwood, once I got there the first thing I wanted to do was find his star.!


OH YEAH btw it REALLY pisses me the fuck OFF to see these dumb ass newsreporters who are talkin shit about him and at the same time saying how his death is "tragic" but "devastating"? wow.. SHUT THEE FUCK UP. fuckin hypocrits. kiss ass seriously. the media loves to eat everyone's souls and make their lives a living broadcasted HELL. seriously.. MICHAEL faced THEE most torture from them. SO they needa cut all that bullshit out about "he died from DRUG ABUSE" man he died from cardiac arrest SHUTUP. Sure he took drugs... there was so much going on with him health wise the man was getting weak, he was sick, give it a fucking break. he died, shit BE FUCKING RESPECTFUL. he didnt fucking take drugs to kill himself, he even said himself he wanted to live forever like peter pan ASSHOLES.




UM so I REALLY cant figure out why I havent cried .. like I thought I was gonna be ballllllllllling...I mean cuz I cried when Lisa Left Eye Lopez died (cuz I loved TLC) but that is NOWHERE near my love for the king of pop... I think Im kinda in denial.. Like... IDK I feel like im CELEBRATING HIS LIFE AND HIS IMPACT right now.. but i know the sadness... Its gonna hit.. SOON. IM SO PISSED I wanted to go to the "Million Man March For Michael Jackson" where you march from Downtown Silver Spring To Howard University but FUCKKKKKKK im gonna be in VA. fml.

Ive been a fan ever since I was little since i was in the WOMB! sike nah idk but it was so long ago i cant even remember, my Grandpa is a hardcore fan too he has all these recorded videos of his concerts. SHIT all of Thailand are die hard fans. FUCK what really pisses me off is the one thing I wanted to do before I die was to see MJ... that depresses me..

MICHAEL JOE JACKSON CAN NEVER BE TOUCHED. NO ONE, I MEAN NO ONE CAN FUCKIN GET UP TO HIS LEVEL. HE MADE WHAT MUSIC IS TODAY, WITHOUT HIM HALF THESE ARTISTS WOULDNT KNOW WTF TO DO. HE HAS INSPIRED ARTISTS, GIVEN TO THOSE LESS FORTUNATE, CARED FOR THE WORLD AND EVERYTHING IN IT (NATURE & ANIMALS), HE HAS BLESSED US WITH HIS GREAT TALENT, HIS DANCING, HIS SINGING. HE IS A MUSICAL GENIUS.... AN ARTIST, AN ICON, A LEGEND.. THE KING OF POP LIVES FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS.


REST IN PEACE MICHAEL JACKSON.

Im gonna go reminisce on my MJ days now and continue to listen to his music.
and write another blog (:


REST IN PEACE

Farrah Faucet



Michael Jackson



IM GOOD - CLIPSE FT PHARRELL ; LOVE THIS TRACK.



"Dont mean to take it per-son-al, but thats just how it be, no disrespect to you, im just enjoyin ME"

IM FEELING THIS.

MAKE-UP LOVE




absolutely fucking beautiful. make-up is art.

& people wonder why I always wear smokey/dark eye makeup... it just pops up.

Jewlry game amazin, car game crazy Gucci man Laflare!



YAY. its out! So seriously, I use to HATE Gucci Mane.. until I heard this song.. I remember very clearly Richard was bumpin this shit in his car while I was there like 4 or 5 months ago and I was feeeeeeeeeelin it, i use to clown on him all the time for likin Gucci LOL but because of him I like him now smh.

First survey on this thing.

BRACE YOURSELF.


Is any part of you sad at all?
mm a very tiny part of me that I cant even feel.

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
yeah.

Where will your next vacation be to?
VA beach. hell yeah, beachtime! again :)

Around this time last year, who did you like?
my ex

What's on your mind right now?
shitttttttt idk

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
no.

Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
closed.

Do you have clothes that belong to other people?
sure dooooo

Want someone or something you can't have?
eh.

Do you like someone?
cant really say i do. attraction yeah but I have a feeling its gonna get there soon.

Are you mad at someone right now?
idc anymore. ima do me, you do you

Do you trust anyone 100%?
no. maybe like 75%

Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?
sonnnnnn i wish!

What is the last movie you watched?
300

Are you different to what you were a year ago?
a lot!

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
yeah...

Who was the last male you talked to on the phone besides family?
Maalik.

Do you prefer to call or text?
depends who.

You're thinking about someone, aren't you?
maybe.

Do you think its wrong to have sex before marriage?
idc

When was the last time you spoke to your brother?
um if i had one..

Do you always wear your seat belt?
mhm

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
not.. yet :P

What hoodie did you wear last?
lifeguard one.

Do you enjoy wearing dresses?
love em

Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
karma all fucking day. thats my religion. i know.


What does your phone do when it receives a new text?
vibrates.

Who is the next person you will kiss?
idk. but i have an idea

Was last night terrible?
no.

If you had to marry someone right now who would it be?
TREY SONGZ (:

Favorite store in the mall?
FOREVER 21

Do you look decent when you wake up?
yeah

Do you sleep with your door open or closed?
closed.

Have you kissed anyone today?
no

Who was the last missed call?
Mom

Who are your last 3 texts from?
Maalik, Lenell, Vernon

Do you think relationships are hard?
story of my life biatchhh.

Is there someone you'd like to fix things with?
fcukkkkkkkkk that

In high school/middle school did you ever get caught passing notes?
middle school yeah

Your last kiss probably meant nothing to you, right?
yep. you got that right. it was just a "hey you think im hot, i think you're hot, lets fuckin makeout" kinda kiss.

Can you count your serious relationships on one hand?
yes sir.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with an J?
Yup.

Is it easy to annoy you?
hell YES

Can you play pool?
not well lol

Did you cry today?
no

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
nope not good at it

Is it possible to be single and happy?
yeah

Have you ever lied to yourself?
yup.

Have you ever been rude to someone without even realizing it?
yeah i have a natural "attitude"

Do you respect your elders?
mhm

Are you single?
yesir

When you were in elementary school, did you change best friends a lot?
no

Ever been in love?
good question..

Could you go a month without cursing?
dont think so

What woke you up this morning?
dad callin me


What is one thing you must have in a relationship?
ONE?! how bout... TRUST, HONESTY, COMMITMENT, blah blah blah

Do you think anyone's thinking about you right now?
idk. maybe

Do you find yourself attractive?
you damn right. sike naw. i do but i also have very ugly lookin/feelin days.

What's the most pain you've experienced physically or emotionally?
emotional

Did the last person you kiss deserve it?:
uh sure?

How do you feel about yourself as a person?:
good person, bad deicisions

Is there someone you're attracted to?:
mhm

Have you ever taken anyone for granted?:
yeah

Have you ever been in love; how'd that end up?:
ha not good obviously

Can you describe your ideal guy/girl?:
ill tell you once i find them

Have you ever loved someone you knew you shouldn't?
yes

What are some things that you have to have everywhere you go?:
cellular.

HOTSHIT.

Im not in that G-shock craze, but this is GORGEOUS.


SO....

Havent been postin shit lately cuz i aint got shit to post about..

uh..

hm

well im startin to notice that im acting more and more like a guy (mentality-wise) as time passes by when it comes to relationships.

-a relationship is not in my views just hookin up and "talking"

-seems like sex is on my mind a lot.. SORRY shit, shoot me damn! I havent had sex in a LONG LONG time.

-I flirt like a dude sometimes hahahaaaaaaaaa.

-There is not ONE person im focused on or dedicated to

-The things i feed to one guy (my words) I say to the rest too..


BUTTT
BUTTTT
BBUTTTTT

honestly even with all this going on

I do want a relationship.. Just with the right person. If there was anyone I thought was right Im scared that ILL BE THE ONE to fuck it up just cuz i feel like im not into this relationship thing anymore just cuz ive got a new perspective on it. I just need the right guy to make me believe in this shit again, believe me I do wanna change into that good gf again its gonna be hard, he has to have patience and show me the way towards that attitude again....

BROKEN HEARTED GIRL - BEYONCE



B is kinda overrated but i loved like 90% of her album, and its about time she released a video for this song cuz its my FAVORITE song from this album, when i first heard the song a couple months back, id play that shit OVER AND OVER.. and i never got tired of it

baddest bitches of June

Each letter!




J
- JESIKAH MAXIMUS (thats not her real name obviously)




U - Ujwala Raut






N- NADIA DAWN


E - Eugenia Silva


Fashion trend or w.e... I just dont find it cute

oh no.

i just cant get into it.

is it just me or are these girls tryna be like Amber Rose without completely jockin her style?

Cassie Ventura


LaLa (this one is ok..)

Fantasia

MEN ARE FUHHHHHNNNYY! HEADS UP!

first offff

you aint gonna get shit from me so get your head out the dirty ass gutter

second

dont feel special its likely (scratch that its 80% likely) that you aint the only guy tryna talk to me or that im talkin to...

third

dont feel cised if im "flirting"with you.. it REALLY doesnt mean i like you

fourth

im getting pretty tired of explainin my situation with men.. so stop asking me.. i swear 894854 guys keep askin me why i feel the way i do about guys

fifth

if you get anywhere near likin me you better work ya ass off cuz before i had walls up, tore em down which was a mistake now i got fuckin brickwalls up .. more like boulders.

sixth

all that sweet talkin dont work on me NO MORE. so cut the bullshit

seventh

no i wont send you a picture. take you number. chill with you. get a fucking life.

eighth

i can hold my own, i dont need no nigga to hold it down for me

ninth

bestttttttttbelieve you cant play me, go headand try, you may succeed but 99.9% of the time im doing it too, you just dont know

tenth

im fuckiiiiiiiiiing done being the nice girl whos alwaysfaithful and sweet when i dont get fucking shit in return. the past couple months i been macin like a guy, thinkin like a guy, talkin like a guy in terms of talking to people. AND ITS BEEN GREATTTTTTTT. so as tong says "EAT THAT SHIT!" cuz most likely im not gonna be that sweet and nice girl NO MORE =]

eleventh

if you cant get with it then get the eff away from me. i dont trust men PERIOD. you dont know my story, you dont know my life. you dont know my father. you dont know who ive dated. so

whoever THINKS they can even try..

LOL. you got a fuckin LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ass way to go!

GOOD FUCKING LUCK=)



EDIT

LMAO OH YEAH HOW CAN I FORGET?!


i know i have attractive friends. thats my crowd. 99% of my girls are beautiful

but i find it fuuuuhliarious that when i dont let a guy "get with me" they then try to get with one of my friends.. LOL and its always with a diff one of my gf's


LMAO damn can you say lame.. this has got to be the like sixth time in 2 months.

lol sorry ass dudes. you can do it all by yourself, you dnt need my help, no sir-reeee!

SHOOTME.




I have so much on my mind right now first of all my stupid space button doesnt work unless i press it REALLY hard so its pissing me off i have to stop after every word i type to press this thing.

im sick it sucks i feel like im dying from coughs.

this is where i wish i had a bf who would come over and take care of me =(

but w.e no bf = no problems...

sike uh thats not entirely true.

idk i was gonna write more but this space button is pissing me off so much.

Im fascinated once again

i think my sneaker fetish is coming back. sike nah but ive never stopped liking sneakers just stop wearing them.

some new shit.... i might have to get a pair of one of these OR ALL? no joke.

Lacoste Cabestan's (Im feelin the black ones)
New Balance MTG580

nike auto force - they resemble the aquas but i like these better

i love them but ill probably never use them

so I got a couple gifts for my grad.

money mostly...

some SEXY vans from Lucky



and a GPS from Dear ...




well here are the two proboems


hmm too bad i retired sneakers a LONG time ago and traded them for heels and flats.. (well techinically they arent sneakers but you know what i mean...) but they are so cute, im gonna have to wear them.. with something... somehow lol.

and a gps? i love it i turned it on and i was like =O "o0o0O0Oo!!!!" hmmm well TOO BAD i dont drive, i dont have a license, and i dont have a car -___-; blown much?

BEACH WEEK WAS THE SHITTTT!



I HAD SO MUCH FUN! I MISS IT ALREADY!

TANNING IN THE DAYTIME, PARTYING AT NIGHT, GOING TO SLEEP AT 5 AM, WAKING UP AT 1 PM, RIDING THE DRUNK BUS, LAUGHING AT THE BOYS TRYNA GET AT YOU ON THE BOARDWALK. GETTIN NUMBERS OUT THE ASS. I CAN GO ON FOREVER...

i kept getting hurt though.
i have like 5 scars from idk what
my finger nail fell off
i have a scar on my nose from gettin hit in the face
i got like a couple bites from who knows what

mm at least i had a good time ;)

what happens in oc stays in oc...

maybe. lol