This would be the RIGHT week for me to STILL be really sick when Maalik is coming to visit me. My throat is clogged, my voice is almost gone, and i have cough thats so bad...

Idk what happened. Been taking mad dayquil, nyquil, and tylenol.. nothing. Its always ME who has something wrong. Its always me who gets hurt. im so fuckin tired of it. why cant i just be healthy and accident free of everything.

Called my dad to tell him i wanted to go home crying.. i was in so much pain, i felt no good not at all .. he tried to calm me down. He told me to go to the hospital.. but how could I? I dont have no money to buy any prescription drugs the doctor gives me.. I dont have any transportation to the hospital.. its a fuckin walk. Its cold. I have classes. I have to pick up maalik.

I feel so damn burdened. I feel hopeless. Im so sick. This is the SECOND time itll be since I been to the hospital here in NY... what a great college experience huh?


Couldnt go to sleep til 5 am last night cuz w.e was in my throat kept me from fallin asleep.. hopefully that wont happen tonight.. i wont count on it.

I wanna tough it out and not go to the doctor n take medicine.. but the medicines not helping..

My dad says if i dont go.. hes gonna come pick up and take me to the doctors at home...

but i already payed for maalik's ticket.. and hes already coming

wtf do i do.


i cant skip class to go to the doctors.. ive missed too many.

the school nurse wont do shit for me. she'll just tell me to go the doctors.














i fucking love this!